When my head is spinning and swimming and all over the place with anxiety and what ifs and stressors, I pick up my camera. This morning I needed to put a damper on all the thoughts and refocus and rebalance and regroup and get rid of the negative. Out of all of the things in my yard it was the cucumber plant that got me. I focused on how the sunshine hit the leaves. The shadows it left. The textures and the feel and the smell of the plant. I got so immersed in the plant that nothing else existed. When I left the plant the things that were super big in my mind went down a notch. Success!
BECOMES A DEAD WISH
BLOWING A DANDELION
INTO THE ABYSS
COMING BACK TO REALITY
AFTER A MOMENT WITH A BUMBLE BEE
MAKES ME FEEL LIKE AN ADDICT
MY OTHER REALITY IS TOO PAINFUL TO BEAR
MINDFULNESS IS LIKE A DRUG
WITH NO FIX
BECAUSE I CANT LIVE THERE
AND I COME BACK TO
A REALITY I CANT LIVE WITH
I AM SPLIT
WHERE IS THE WISDOM
IN A COPING SKILL
SOMETIMES I MISS
WHERE DO I FIT
IN THIS LIFE WITH SUCH BEAUTY
BUT EQUAL PAIN
TOSSED IN THE MIX
I WANT TO LIVE
I went out to distract myself. It was one of THOSE days. Red flag times 2. I had to not sit here and dwell so I went out to take some photos and came upon THIS magnificent bird!!!! Look at him. I have no idea what he is but he is magnificent. I’ve named him Tristan because I name them all! Tell me what Tristan is and I will give you a million fake dollars!!! Really, I want to know what kind of bird he is!
After Tristan I ran across Emily:
And then some beautiful flowers
And this adorable snail Francis
And do you remember Justice from yesterday?
Well we met his SISTER CLARITY tonight on our walk. It was almost dark, 8:30 but look at how gorgeous she is. They were hunting together and getting little bugs off the ground.
Clarity has one yellow eye and one blue eye. Justice has two blue eyes. Just FYI. It was a wonderful walk that successfully distracted me from my woes.
I saw the white line first.
Then the purple haze
Lavender I realized
31 lines I memorized
The edges sharper on the right side.
I ran my finger over the center
So smooth as if it had been glazed.
Here I lay
In my daze
Staying focused on the shell
In my hand
To keep me from remembering
The scars from man
I KNOW BOB HE IS TOTALLY WALKING THROUGH YOUR AWESOME REFLECTION! NOT COOL!!!!!
Photography is so fun! Especially when you have conversations with birds and imagine what they may be thinking. Mindfulness is awesome.