Remembering

Today, I remember yesterday. So that is much improvement. I remember what I ate, that I went for two walks with my husband, and that for a brief moment I forgot that my dog had passed away. Memories…it’s too bad I can’t forget the traumas. It is too bad I cannot pick and choose what my brain will remember and forget. Yesterday I stood while making for for my daughter, twice. I HAVE to use a barstool because my legs don’t have the endurance to stand that long. I forgot. Today my legs are very painful. But, my brain must be recovering even thought they don’t even know what happened to it after the seizures. I will share with you the pictures I took on my very mindful walk yesterday.

I left the house and almost immediately a hawk swooped down. It’s wing grazed my head and he landed right in front of me. I gasped so loudly that he looked up at me with a look of “what?!” And then he grabbed whatever food he had been headed for. At first I thought, since I had put sunglasses up on my head that maybe the hawk had mistaken them for something. 


My husband didn’t think so. He thought, like the owl, that I am just part of their world, so they move around me as if I were a tree they were flying past. 

After the hawk, two little dogs ran out to greet me behind their fence. I am the only one that they wag their tails and get excited to see. Everyone else it seems they are in protect property mode. 


The sky became dark and I came back home after five minutes and waited out the short rain


When I first went back out I was very intent on mindfulness and immedately saw this colorful leaf.


Right after came these colorful clusters of berries all over a tree on an empty lot.


Then the flowers just jumped out of everywhere. I don’t know if they have been here forever or if it was just the way the sun was shining through them that made them look so beautiful. We also came upon a group of wildflowers that I stop by every day. Weeds people will say. They are always filled wtih the most beautiful butterflies and bugs and bees. Today was bee day!


I got home to sit on the deck with my daughter just in time to hear my owl. Of every moment of disorientation and short term memory issues I have had this week, not one time did I forget my owl. I guess some things are just unforgettable. She was too high in the trees to find but I recorded her voice. Listen to this voice. I will forever be proud of her for overcoming her hard start with an injured leg. I will forever be proud of her mother for taking care of her longer than normal until she was sure she could make it on her own. I will forever be blessed to have been a part of her life for these past 7 months. Hearing her find her voice has been something I will never forget. 

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54 thoughts on “Remembering

  1. I absolutely love the sound of owl. And wildflowers are awesome. I was just pet sitting this weekend and the next door neighbor where I was has them on their front hill. I have some pics from them in years past as I used to walk their dog too. She has passed though and in fact looked a lot like your Jessy. (Her name was Lucy.)

    Sorry I am getting off track here. Don’t worry if you aren’t able to follow. My free association can really go off in all directions. Lol.

    What is the orange and yellow flower? I love the color orange.

    That being said, yellow is right up there too and so is all shades of purple. I really like the photo of the tall yellow flowers in front of the pine? tree (or is it a cypress?). Either way, the contrast gets me, I love it.

    That red leaf looks like what the leaves are beginning to get like around here with fall honing in on us. It’s been hot though the last couple weeks. Humid too. It’s quite unseasonable and I should not complain but I don’t like it. I’m looking forward to cooler temps (not winter though).

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    1. I love your blog it is just the screen is bothering my head. I tried to watch tv with my husband and now my head is throbbing. I have the screen turned way down too. I don’t know why this is still an issue. I go up on the seizure meds tonight though so maybe that will help.
      The orange flower is a cannalilly. I love them. I used to have tons of them but they didnt come back this year. This is in my neighbor’s yard. I find it so adventurous when I drive my wheelchair up people’s driveway when I see a flower I like. Thinking at any movement they will pop out of their house.
      I LOVED that yellow flower it was blowing in the wind and a pine tree was behind it. I couldnt get it clear because it was blowing but it was so cool. It was way above my head so at least 6 feet tall.
      We basically have no fall in florida so i have no idea where this leaf came from and it is still hot as blazes outside. So i loved that i found it.
      I’m going to catch up on your blog tonight. Everyone else’s I will have to put on hold!
      The sound of the owl, I listen to that recording over and over. She rolls her R’s at the end it sounds like to me. I’m just happy I got to be a part of an owl’s life.

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      1. I’m laughing at two things. That the owl rolls her Rs at the end. That cracks me up. And that I wrote “I love the sound of owl” as if it’s some delicacy. lol. The word owl should have an ‘s’ at the end of it. Proof reading skills and all that. haha.

        When I commented about following I was actually referring to my comment. Talking about flowers and then switching to pet sitting because they have flowers, etc. I tend to go off in different directions sometimes (a lot actually) when I write, when I think, even when I talk. And it confuses people, understandably so since my thought process is all over the place.

        No worries on the reading. I know you’ve been having a difficult time. I am worried about you and hope that you recover from this. I know what that feels like to have the computer screen feel like it’s burning your retinas and frontal lobe. Been there for sure. Not the same reason, but I get it and it’s just easier to turn it off.

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      2. I didn’t even notice that you didn’t put an S. That is hilarious. But she IS infact just ONE owl. Soooo leaving off the S is totally acceptable here.
        I like how you talk about flowers then pet sitting. I guess our brains are alike because it flows very well in my head as I read it. I was like oh good flowers, oh a dog that looked like jessy. All fine in my head!

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  2. Beautiful. I’m so glad you are on the mend. I saw a pillow with Owls on it at Goodwill when I still worked there and I spoke to the owls and asked them to speak to you and to help you. I’m glad they listened and helped you. I love you and I’m so proud of you. I’m cheering you on!!

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    1. Little bits. Like i remember some things from yesterday. I still feel like i am living in a dream or watchign someone elses life. It is very odd

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      1. The closest I can compare to here, is the Tui. We have a pair of them that sit up in the trees every morning. Their song is just beautiful If you get the chance, google Tui Bird Song and you can have a listen for yourself ❀

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      2. We nicknamed my daughter this when she first started singing at 2 years old and pronounce it toowee and we still call her this and she is almost 21. She had the song of a tui. I cannot believe you have them in real life to listen to!!!!

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      3. Oh wow!! How cool is that! Yes, thats how its pronounced here in our indigenous language ❀ Such a beautiful song too. And yes, i sit outside in the mornings and listen out for them … they don't come close, as in it's hard to get photos of them … but they're pretty loud when they get going – I'll try record them one day πŸ™‚

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      4. My daughter got a real kick out of your reply. I just read it to her. She has a beautiful voice just like this bird.
        The owl is far too high so I can’t get pictures of her anymore. But her voice is good enough for me!

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      5. “What I listen to when I need to feel hope” if you search my blog posts for that you will find my daughter singing a song. Just a verse. It was all wordpress would let me upload.

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      6. Aw gawd … just had a listen to her … OMG she’s beautiful to listen too and beautiful ❀ bought a little tear to my eye xox can see why you find this calming and soothing ❀

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      7. Thank you! Something about her just soothes my soul. She sang this one time for me and never sang it again. She just did it because I asked her to but really felt it emotionally. I think she is beautiful too:)

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      8. Our kids have a unique way of ‘getting us’ I think … my girl tried to give Me singing lessons once … and because I wasn’t breathing properly she told Me to yell, right from the gutt … just to let it go. I did and she burst into tears. She said she’d never heard so much pain in one breath. 😦
        As you can imagine though … No more singing lessons LOL xo

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      9. Ahahahaha. If you only KNEW how often I got singing lessons!!!! At least once a week she tries. I am unhelpable. I’m like, honey, we all don’t have what you do! But if I just practiced on my breathing and my projecting and the placement of my mouth and jaw and blah blah blah she tries. At least you got off the hook. I’m still on!

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      10. Omg that is so cute!!!!
        One year I wanted to sing a song for my husband for christmas. So my daughter recorded it. I had to sing word for word. Each word was repeated. It was so painful!!!!!! I’d be all into it thinking I was bad ass and she’d just say NOPE BAD FLAT AGAIN. And it took us weeks to do this. It was so funny. I thought she’d kill me by the end. But he got his christmas present and because I am his wife he thought it was the greatest thing ever. The man has no ear for singing so , yeah. He has no clue how bad it is

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      11. How is it you can post long videos on your blog? Mine lets me do only 11 seconds or it just locks up and won’t play! I must be doing something wrong

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      12. These are off YouTube and I just cut and paste the URL in the media section. I haven’t managed to upload personal videos though .. .same issue as you. Not sure why though … I’m not that technically ‘advanced’ lol

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      13. Ohhh. Ok that makes sense. And I am very very not technically advanced! I have seriously opposite ability. Most things I have to ask my daughter how to do

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      14. I hear yah … I used to ask my girls, and then they saw it as licence to take this piss out of Me lol … so now I google what I need and save a bit of my dignity hahaha

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      15. Think i have zero dignity left. I’ve been reduced to quite ignorant status when it comes to anything technology related and YET I can find something in the fridge that is looking at her directly in the face that she cannot see. So we are somehow even

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      16. “My daughter and her friend singing a little song” is another one I have of her singing with her friend nico. She has not recorded in two years since she has been so sick but she is still and always be my little song bird. Half the time she is toowee. Half the time she is birdy. We rarely call her by her given name

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      17. I thought they did a great job for not being together. The individually did it in different places and put it together over the computer or something. I got confused what they were doing honestly

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      18. She has taken up opera in the last year and it is really beautiful. She has always loved to sing since a little tiny thing. And something about it is very calming to the soul. She is always humming or singing something in the background all day every day. I don’t know what I would do if I stopped hearing her songs

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      19. I watched it with my daughter. She said she had one never seen so many beautiful people and two wow that was beautiful. Really. It was amazing!!!!!!!! Thank you so much for sharing

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      20. I honestly sat her with my mouth hanging open. As in holy cow a group of gorgeous individuals with gorgeous voices all coming together to make this beautiful sound.

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